To my sweet, beautiful, precious girls,
It was one year ago today that your daddy and I found out that we were finally pregnant. Although I already had a feeling that there were 2 of you in me, we still were not for sure. We found that amazing information out a couple of weeks later.
I remember Maria (the nurse) calling around 3, and your uncle Josh and I had just gotten home from the store. I remember hearing the words… “Well Erin, Congratulations! Your blood work shows you are pregnant.” Those were such amazing sweet words and I was so thankful and happy that my dreams of becoming pregnant had finally come true. Of course Daddy, CC, Uncle Josh, Aunt Liz, etc. all cried as well when I called to tell them.
So here we are today. 1 year later from one of the greatest days of my life. I remember the 8 ½ months being pregnant with you were quite an adventure. Being sick at first, then feeling great, and then finally towards the end when things got a little rough; bed rest was a new adventure for me and definitely a big obstacle to overcome! But for you two, I would have done anything. I was always so worried about everything I did. I would call Ms. Kristin and say “What is wrong with me?” I loved her words and I still tell myself them today… “Erin, you will always be worried. You will be worried about one thing, get past that, and then start worrying about something else. You will be worried about them for the rest of your life. It’s normal and what all parents do.” So true!
The day we went to find out what you two were was an exciting day as well. My mommy intuition kept thinking you were both boys, but oh was I wrong. As the nurse announced to daddy, me, CC, and Aunt Liz that Baby A was a girl and then Baby B was a girl, your daddy began to scream and jump up and down. I just laid there and thinking, “Oh man, I am forever broke!” I knew I already had a bow infatuation and that was all I kept getting friends and their little girls. But as I look back and remember how excited your daddy was, that may have been another one of the best days ever! We were trying to leave the doctor office that day and your daddy was going up to random people telling them we were having 2 girls. So funny but embarrassing…
Finally the BEST day of my life, March 8, 2012 was here and you two were about to make your shining debut. Exactly 1 month ahead of schedule, Addisyn came at 9:02 and Austyn at 9:03. Hearing you cry was such an amazing sound and daddy and I sat there and cried. I held you briefly and then you were taken off to the NICU.
Those next few weeks were rough but you were learning how to breathe, grow, and feed. CC and Daddy took turns driving me back and forth every day to come see you. Most days, we were there twice a day. I couldn’t get enough of you! At night I would fall asleep staring at pictures of you, and wake up so eager and ready to get in the car and come see you. I kept thinking how amazing, perfect, and gorgeous you two were. March 21, 2012 we brought both of you home! I was so excited but nervous and scared at the same time.
Over the past 4, well almost 5 months, I have LOVED watching you 2 grow. You have such distinct personalities and looks and I sometimes feel that I don’t have twins because you 2 are so different. You recently have started to figure out that there are 2 of you and I love watching you both look at each other and smile and hold hands. You always want to be close to each other. As I sit here typing this letter to you, I am watching you sleep and admiring how beautiful you both are.
Addisyn Claire, you are my sweet, laid back, gorgeous little girl. Although you are the oldest, you’re the smallest and so wonderful. You have definitely been high maintenance in your own way though. From your apnea/heart monitor to your lovely whole bottle spit ups, and your recent bug bite reaction, you have kept us on our toes. I will admit there has been some rough go rounds with you and several late night ER visits, but you are a fighter and SO AMAZINGLY PERFECT. I love cuddling with you and holding you and watching those big blue eyes look at me and then see that big smile go across your face. I love your crazy out of control hair, which I am pretty sure you got from your daddy. I love that you are a HUGE mommy’s girl and I am the only one that can calm you down fast. I love you my sweet, precious, beautiful Addy bear!
Austyn Gail, you are my strong, high maintenance, goofy, cute as a button little girl. You are younger by a minute but oh so strong. You have kept me on my toes as well but in a different way. You always want to be entertained and have full attention on you. If you don’t have someone playing with you, you squeal and scream to get our attention. Most of the time we all, even Addy, look at you like you are just a crazy nut. You love hearing yourself scream and think it’s funny. You make us laugh a lot and I love but also strongly dislike when you throw your fits. Somehow you know what you’re doing and know the right and wrong time to throw those little fits. You are mommy as a little girl… looks and personality from what I have been told. You are definitely a daddy’s girl and I love watching you start to look around when you hear his voice. You as well are SO AMAZINGLY PERFECT. I love you my precious and hilarious Boo!
I can only hope that I always keep you protected from harm and that you grow up and get whatever you want. Well… we will have some discussions about that last part. I hope and pray for you to both grow up healthy and strong and that you know how much Mommy and Daddy love you. We wished and dreamed for a family and we are so grateful that we now have that. Last week, we had an eye opening experience that made us realize just how precious and valuable you two are. We knew it before, but I really saw just how amazing and precious motherhood was. I love that you have each other and I can’t wait to watch you two interact with each other and hopefully be the best of friends. I love you two girls more than anything in this world. I never knew that I could love something this much.
I love you forever and always,
Mommy
